~Just some sharing~

Its has been a year that i forgoten i own a blog. Busy life chasing me make me never got a chance to continue my blogging. In this half and a year , many things happen unexpected. Including i found my love one , and the one which love me...both of them i only get a failure. Somehow i been through hard times to accept my life back to single. When in relationship , i always giving my self lots of reason why should i get so busy and so on.... but in single way , i also keep complaining about busy life
I absorb more and more exprience from the past and i learn from the mistake i have done. Life ain't perffect forever..cause there is never a perffect life actually, its just a simply thought that we gave ourself to help us more hope and hope.

"Hope" is a action we wait something to happened in the way we want it to be the way we want, but i would like to do something first beside for just waiting...

Back To The Place Which Belong To Me..

Last updated since 2007 december , the only reason i had stop to continue my blog is because i start to feel lazy on the write and read. Never thought i would back to here some day and never think of i still remember what my blog's name.





By the way , year 2008 to 2009 are quite long for me , many thing changes and happened just in a year , lots of thing wasn't easy to over come it. But luckly i own a group of bestie friend in my life , without they support and comfort i don't think i might make it this far that giving me this chance to write a post for now. First of all , i would like to thanks to my friends which giving me concern and help all the time. Thanks my bro and sis !! *BIG BIG HUG*

Nelson Year 2009

Alright , let me cut down the crap and tell what actually i been through during the times. Once i finish my SPM level i didn't think of to go further education in my life time, for me it is a totaly freedom to get rid from the books , hahaha...i wish the younger generation do not think like me, if i got a chance for me to make a different choices among the past incident , i will choose to go on for the further study. But that doesn't mean i regret to stop my books education last time.





Education is not only on the books, there is many thing which we can't learn or absorb from books, we must been through it ourselve only then we can understand the different between books thing and real sociality problems.





After the long holidays on end of year 2007 , year 2008 i start to work on head of February, as a clerk at gold smith, same thing as i never expect i will become a clerk at gold smith during my dreaming study times. Totaly different thing right ? ^^ Day by day .... because of work , i knew a girl and had one sight love with her(on 2nd of april), unfortunately i am not the type she like. But i didn't just walk away with the bad news from her. I stay and struggles so hard to get her attention. Finally i get it..we start by using mobile phone to chat , not even dare to talk face to face.





We start the association after month of months i chase her. Little does one think our relationship end from the count of 5 days from the start. I won't giving up and i continue chase her. Then some affair happened and therefrom i start to withdraw my hope on her...bla bla bla...long story lazy to talk about it , and this year we start again before the chinese new year. Here is the problem now , i actually too force her to start a relationship with me before i make any comfirmation about her love and her little mind. So recently founded that her heart is not with me all this time , making lots of suffer and unhappy between us two. I told my self that , if i really wish her found her truely happiness, i have to let go of her...She got lots admirer and she like some one but not me.. Ouchh..that's broke my heart into pieces.That is what lately happened on me , relationship problem.. i believe many people face it too.








I will try to make a post everyday on atleast once a week =D I just wanna write down everything on here...all my feels , emotion , thinking...Honestly,She is the girl that i most love in my life* i know my life still long way to go lar =.="" haha..see ya , gtg...tomorrow have to work, stop right here 1st.

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Lame Post Tong !!! haha

Went to Leo Dinner Night...

Yeah! Finish Schooling lor~~

Hmm..after study six years at S.M.K DPHA Gapor Stampin, and get to know so much friends at there. Feel happy but also upset, happy cause finish schooling and sad cause cannot everyday stick with friend at school....feeling very confuse now.

Closer and closer...

Since a long time i din't update my blog. Anyway, wish those friend view my blog and saw my greeting here always healthy and happy. Even though i don't like to attend classes at school but i still hoping i can extend my education level with my friends. After SPM we got no more chances to sit in class room and listen to our subject teachers scolding their students or no more teasts from the student to teachers. Feel a little bit regreted , but it is one of our life process that have to pass through...what to do ?? just can accept it. How wish i can stop the time in anytime , anyway and anywhere i want to do so...*Sigh*

Friendly Friend...

Found out that Black Skin( O Lang),(Negro) people are very friendly. Today i go swimming by my own , meet my friend's friend IyKe ! He is so so so so friendly like my Friend LinuS :) i think we Malaysians should learn the way they treat people in this way. Swim for 4 hour plus , after home...direct go out with Dennis, tak and tze yee to Kuching Fest to see "Earth Dance" team performances not bad actually :) atleast better than me. But it is okay , i will learn and get better than them. Thats how i pass my one afternoon and night. Today exam Sejarah so i to revision till 3 o clock last time , 4.30 sleep 6.20 woke up ! omg !! still got so many energy to spend in afternoon and night ! haha ! now i should go learn account or go sleep after done my push up and sit up ? tak tau lar ! ZzZzZ Night!

Mata jiak pa eng..

Hihi , i'm back...11 days away from online >"< cause lately busy bah. Now still in Exam week..Last night because of want do revision at late night, so i go jogging to wake my self up around 8 something till 9 something. Jogging till half saw Mata (police) at Park car parking there to check every car which is only park there dunno doing what inside. hahaha...good also lar. After that only left my self at the park jogging, feel so nice...just run run run run run !!!! After reach home , bath already almost 10 o'clock then go STUDY lor !!! really tiam , study whole night only can remember abit things. 2 o'clock then i want sleep liaw ~~ I remember i still go disturb Ah xian hahaha !!!

Just write for fun..

Lately , yhock act weird , i think he found his girl girl liaw!! hahaha ! but never intro also...so mean one. Last wednesday Master Henry Lee told us Korean instructor coming for wednesday night black belt class, those want go can go for train. Who know that night , 22 black belts , 4 black tips only me 1 blue belt....i am the lowest belt level. The most important one is...the korean coach put us aeroplane...PHEW !!! ZzZz !!! dunno what to write liaw , bye bye

CrY

Cry for my body,

Cry for my soul,

Cry for my times,

Cry for my appearance,

Cry for my emotion,

Cry for my friends,

Cry for my familys,

Cry for my things,

Cry for my events,

Who may cry for me ?

Who will cry for me ?

Who wish cry for me?

Who want cry for me ?

Who has cry for me ?

What have i done in my life ?

What have i done for my self and other peoples in my life ? How many things i ever done to help me self ? How much it mean to me ? How many things i ever done for others ? It's help others ? Is my life important for my self ? for other ? Don't know... at least i know what should i do now. For family, friends around me , my self and also strangers which appear in my life... =)

Light...

Light

How much is a light for you ?

Is it everything for you ?

How it look into your mind ?

What you think it is ?

Can you see without it ?

Watching in a dark world?

It bring happiness or sadness ?

It is worth to have it ?

Why does it appear in our life ?

Can use it to change a life ?

When will it disappear ?

Where it from ?

How it form ?

Living in a dark world without it.

I |ik3 Th|s SonG

Star

Believe in me and you will see,

That i'm your star,

Shining on your way.

The darkest room,

The Deepest night,

And i'll be your light.

Forever there to hold your hand,

Even till the end,

The darkest room,

The deepest night,

And i will be your light.

It's no matter where your are,

Forever i will be your star,

Believe in my and you will see,

That you can fly if you feel free.

PerSonal L|f3

Parent and brother sister are not around with me. Having personal life for few days. Found that , HouseWork are hard for me. Last time i use to take off my shirt and throw at a side take off my sock and put at a side, after have my meal without wash it, don't like sweep floor , mop floor... always ready to eat without helping to cook. Used to call peoples do things for me and also find protection from my parent. Now i have to wash my own cloths , sock , pant , dish , throw my own rubbish , and sit alone... i'm just so lonely and helpless. Always wishing there's a hand to hold me, help me , reach to me, answer me....

Grandpa I LOVE YOU !!!!

I was quite regret cause i never tell my grandpa that i love him. I love him very much...I LOVE YOU GRANDPA !!! Even u are not in this world already , but u still always in my world, my heart a place which cannot be replace by anyone. We will meet each other in heaven some day. May God always with my Grandpa and rest in peace. Love ya grandpa

A Gift may change a life...

Today i go for taekwondo training at Inti , Master Henry Lee(6th Dan) conduct the class today. Lolx , he give me a small gift which he bought from Korea. Actually , i was very upset today...my grandpa just passed away. Alright , after recieved the gift from Master Henry Lee my mood change better. Might cause of i didn't recieve any gift for a quite long time. Even a small small cheap cheap gift also might change a person.

Unknow TonG

Actually , what am i ? who am i ? where am i ? this kind of question can't be answer by me. Living in a world without confidence, alot things i think that is fake....i can't fully trust it. Getting far and far with the world, screaming at a place which is dark , and small but no body are there to hear. Feel helpless , hopeless every walking step cause me to think alot like how ? why ? when ? where ? confirm ? Loss my self in a dark small corner and no body were there for me...Dying ? I don't know

Getting wrong with my own...

Doesn't know how it happen and when it happen. Feel so empty in my life, feel so depressing. Suddenly found out and change my opinion about life. Found out it was so hard and complicated things. Mind changes everythings what we can see , hear , taste , feel , sence....alots things can just change in a second or even less than a second in our mind. MIND are everything, THINKING are everything. Am i really need changes for my self ? Or should i just stay like the same ? doing like a blur ? I just don't know....!!! DON"T KNOW ! (Just find a place for me to dump what i feel in the heart)

DOOM !! aliciaaaaaaaaa stop suan me

Omg omg omg omg omg omg, I WRONG SENT SMS TO ALICIA. xia soi me , inside write some things..(can't tell here, haha) omggggggggggggggggggggggg....she gonna suannnn meeee....

Some On3 Said i am Dark

Is it my skin were dark ?? don't know cause everyday i saw my self..can't feel the change of the skin colour. Everyday from school around 12 or 1 pm with a very hot and strong sun above me walk from school to my house. how can i be fair ? if i still fair like that , me my self will shock also ar..hahaha...some more , i love sport....it's hard for me to be fair i think... T_T

SwimminG ?!!!

Keep on swimming for 2 days >"< my hand really train alot and my muscle are really painful !!! done quite lots of exercise these days. Daniel also swim with me in this 2 days.... tommorrow is my upgrading day lor. hope can get double promotion jump 2 belt :P hahha dream too much. alright , tired....need to get a rest for tommorrow =) byes !!SWIMMING !! yeah , even i don't know how to swim but i enjoy there.